Tonight was one of the best nights I've had at college.
One of my roommates and I [the one that's not moving out] actually hung out for pretty much the first time and with other people from our hall. We had so much fun. I laughed harder than I have in a really long time.

I'm so glad I'm living here next semester. I'm so glad my parents changed their minds. I would be miserable at home. I'm happy here.

One of my friends is coming home soon for Winter break and I'm happy and anxious at the same time. Whenever she comes home for breaks I sometimes make up excuses so I won't have to hang out with her, because we have little to say to each other when we're together. She's seemed to have moved on and made a new life for herself away from our home town and I still feel 16 instead of 19(almost 20).

I hate that I'm so boring and awkward. I'm more fun when I'm sleep deprived so when I'm planning to hang with friends/family/whatever I force myself to sleep less and stay awake longer.

My best friend has been in Massachusetts and I'm still at home in Georgia. She's been saying she misses home and she's going to come back to GA and live in Atlanta for months and now she's saying she wants to stay in Mass. Her changing her mind is nothing new, she's very wishy washy. I'm used to that, but I'm still disappointed that she'll continue being so far away. I don't show it, but I'm really very lonely.

Maybe I'm just sad right now because I have no job and I won't be in school until March. I haven't made any new friends so I'm pretty much alone/stuck at home with my parents all the time. I know things will get better, but right now I'm stuck in a rut.

I wish someone would like me without feeling obligated to.

You asked me what I was doing next year and I told you I'm moving out of town. You replied "Well that's too bad." It was the first time I have ever heard you say anything even remotely close to your feelings of me.

The mere fact that I care so much about you in turn is not only tearing me apart but is half the reason I'm moving. You can't get someone out of your system if you see them regularly.

I fear the truth is that I never want to stop loving you and that I really never will. (as horrible as you have been to me in return)

Letting go of you has been a lot easier than i thought it would be...

I feel like a failure because all I really want in life is to get married and have babies.

After all the progress women have made, I just want to be a typical housewife.

It sounds lame, but it's all I want in life. Its all I've ever wanted.

Stephis says:
So.. what were you doing on myspace at 3am mister? shouldn't you have been in bed?
Adam says:
well. i just wanted to see a picture of your pretty face before i went to bed to dream of you. thats why
Adam says:
is that alright with you?

That's why I love him.
:)

I wrote a suicide note today and stared at my full bottle of ibuprofen for half an hour.

I haven't saved the note to my computer yet because I can't decide I'm scared I might actually need it.

i don't want to live here next semester, so i'm commuting.
i don't want to live at home next semester either.

either way i'm going to get abused.

Today, I told my parents that if they got me nothing else for Christmas, I want a package of blank postcards! :) I thought of my perfect postsecret in geometry class yesterday. I was so proud.

the show "Intervention" makes me wanna get fucked up sometimes. Weird, huh.

I always seem to attract guys who love Jack Johnson.

Dude, I fucking hate Jack Johnson.

Therefore, we're doomed: you have unfortunate taste in music.

Um, sorry?

1. My first orgasm ever was while I was on my period.

2. Never seen titanic

3. Never ordered a hamburger at McDonald's/ even tried it

4. I think dancing by myself in my room has actually improved my dance moves dramatically.

I'm going on a holiday to a different part of the world I've never seen. My secrets are:

~ I want to stay there and start over and pretend like my past never happened
~ I want to escape from all the ties holding me down here
~ I won't stay there because there are people that need me here, even if this reason is only an excuse because I'm scared to start over.

~ I asked my girlfriend to marry me she said yes, I'm avoiding giving her the ring because then if my heart ever falters, or I hurt her, it's going to hurt 100x more than the pain I felt when I cheated for the first time.

My best friend in the entire world, my sister in everything but blood, the other half of me, is in the hospital with swine flu. She already has a weak immune system, and it takes her almost a month to get over a regular cold.

I've never been more scared in my life.

I have a phobia of the sound people make when they crack their knuckles.

FUCK YOU
FUCK IT
I AM NEVER EVER GETTING YOU ANYTHING EVERY AGAIN!


LEARN HOW TO APPRECIATE WHAT IS GIVEN TO YOU THAN FUCKING GETTING OVER OBSESSIVE ON WHAT IT IS!!!!!



FUCKING DAMN IT SHIT HOLE MOTHER FUCKER.

All my friends come to me for relationship advice.
Almost all of them have gotten married because of it.
I've never been in a relationship in my entire life.
I don't care about love.

1. when i lose all the weight i want and look fabulous, i'm not giving you the time of day. i want to stop talking to you like you stopped talking to me. i'm sick of your shit and you using me on a daily basis. sick and tired of it.

2. how can you develop a crush on someone you don't even know and only talked to for like 20 minutes and have friends in common? common ground in people you know and good looking men make all the difference to me.

3. my life is changing before my eyes. i don't know if it's a good thing or bad thing. i'm actually quite scared of what's to come and i need to be fearless.